Sunday, April 25, 2010
tune up --
200 posts...god its been long.
so many thoughts i have in mind but have no idea how to phrase them, don't feel like openly shouting them out.
i have been thinking of what i have been going through for the whole of last year, training non-stop from the lift lobby to the lowest basement of bukit timah shopping centre, going to esplanade subways, entering cyphers, getting smoked, listening to music, watching people and watching how other people watch me, having my ego trampled on by other dancers, going to watch competitions, learning from others, watching videos of born, having a battle outside my house, listening to music, silently marking and experimenting with steps, grooving to the beat, sweating like a mad dog, sleeping, listening to music, tiring myself out like shit, saying no to outings to practice, dying, crying, practice, practice, practice.
add an "alone" to all of the above and that will how i have been training for all of the past year full stop.
i've practiced hard. i've practiced alone. it wasn't easy. no, it wasn't.
i've gone this far, and this is definitely not the end. one reason for training that hard was to get into street, and here i am. all this training was to show everyone that i know, especially the dancers who i first met in the dance studio, that i can do it, im just as capable as reaching your standard as you are.
this mindset will never die, as stubborn as i am. this goal will be etched in my mind forever, as well as the aggressive, passionate attitude i have developed towards dancing.
yet i know right now i am wrong.
i am in a team - a team of competent, gifted dancers, a batch with the same passion for dancing.
i have joined street dance, and am in an extremely talented batch. yeoon, clive, weijie, mansi, crystal, syidah, nan, joong, di, geraldine, danielle, mandi, juliet, yuhan. 3 months in, and we are performing onstage. how cool is that.
through my process of learning breaking, i have met yeoon, chenwei, wilbert, michael lee, wei jie, dat, wee kien, troy, weihing, zanthe, nandita, teri, and so many others who have ventured past the babyfreeze to learn more about the dance, and enjoy it as much as, or even more than i do.
big shoutouts though, to yeoon and chenwei, who have been breaking with me ALL this while. cannot thank you two enough. you bros should know how i feel.
i am not alone, and hence i should not feel so.
thus i won't train hard. i won't give it my all in the performance. i won't show the world how much respect street deserves.
WE will train hard. WE will give it our all in the performance.
WE will show the world how much respect street deserves.
whew!
turn off
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