Sunday, April 25, 2010
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200 posts...god its been long.
so many thoughts i have in mind but have no idea how to phrase them, don't feel like openly shouting them out.
i have been thinking of what i have been going through for the whole of last year, training non-stop from the lift lobby to the lowest basement of bukit timah shopping centre, going to esplanade subways, entering cyphers, getting smoked, listening to music, watching people and watching how other people watch me, having my ego trampled on by other dancers, going to watch competitions, learning from others, watching videos of born, having a battle outside my house, listening to music, silently marking and experimenting with steps, grooving to the beat, sweating like a mad dog, sleeping, listening to music, tiring myself out like shit, saying no to outings to practice, dying, crying, practice, practice, practice.
add an "alone" to all of the above and that will how i have been training for all of the past year full stop.
i've practiced hard. i've practiced alone. it wasn't easy. no, it wasn't.
i've gone this far, and this is definitely not the end. one reason for training that hard was to get into street, and here i am. all this training was to show everyone that i know, especially the dancers who i first met in the dance studio, that i can do it, im just as capable as reaching your standard as you are.
this mindset will never die, as stubborn as i am. this goal will be etched in my mind forever, as well as the aggressive, passionate attitude i have developed towards dancing.
yet i know right now i am wrong.
i am in a team - a team of competent, gifted dancers, a batch with the same passion for dancing.
i have joined street dance, and am in an extremely talented batch. yeoon, clive, weijie, mansi, crystal, syidah, nan, joong, di, geraldine, danielle, mandi, juliet, yuhan. 3 months in, and we are performing onstage. how cool is that.
through my process of learning breaking, i have met yeoon, chenwei, wilbert, michael lee, wei jie, dat, wee kien, troy, weihing, zanthe, nandita, teri, and so many others who have ventured past the babyfreeze to learn more about the dance, and enjoy it as much as, or even more than i do.
big shoutouts though, to yeoon and chenwei, who have been breaking with me ALL this while. cannot thank you two enough. you bros should know how i feel.
i am not alone, and hence i should not feel so.
thus i won't train hard. i won't give it my all in the performance. i won't show the world how much respect street deserves.
WE will train hard. WE will give it our all in the performance.
WE will show the world how much respect street deserves.
whew!
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10:06 AM|
Thursday, April 22, 2010
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life this week has been a retarded flurry of rehearsals and practices that have been enjoyable yet taxing on the brain and body.
everything's a blur now, its passing so quickly before my eyes - my life in my cca and my class....im missing every moment before it happens.
or probably its cos im too shagged out to take a mental note of all that passes by.
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why am i not disappointed? probably cos my ultimate goal might not be to lead, but to excel. the decision helped me rethink my directions in jc, and what i know now is i will never cease to improve.
im glad that i am able to serve street in the position i have the privilege to uphold.
but in any case, i will never back down.
i'll have a daily countdown, i'll have an extra rep for every set. whatever.
watch out for me, all of you!
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10:51 PM|
Sunday, April 18, 2010
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how many words do i need to summarize my life this whole week.
fuyo. songs. dancenight rehearsals. danceworks. chitchat.
my life is officially taken over.
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on the other hand i feel as if im turning into some machine. sorry to my friends who haven't been hearing much of me lately. just will never feel like talking. at all.
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5:36 PM|
Saturday, April 10, 2010
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ooooh. all laced up and ready to go.
fuyo interschool again.
(:
gonna be fun.
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2:48 AM|
Sunday, April 4, 2010
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PUSHIN THE LIMIT
this week
next week
week after
week
after
week
RAWRRRRRR
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11:20 PM|
Saturday, April 3, 2010
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it was 10 pm and i was reading wuthering heights in my sister's bedroom, and she was on her study table mugging psychology.
my sister and i started talking about life and all, and school, and dance. heart to heart talk, you could say. rasyidah also happened to be in the room and we talked about wuthering heights, and how it was so difficult to analyse it. nandita as well. mainly talked about the first half of the book cos we only read till the 1st half. then we talked about danceworks and yihuan and tessa entered the room, and we like had a heartfelt sharing of how life would be after the competition, and after the j2s stepped down.
suddenly the bedroom lights flickered shut one by one, the main light, the study light and the toilet light. and then all that was left was the study lamp, which shone brightly for around 5 seconds. i was staring at it cos i had nothing else to stare at, and then it suddenly dimmed to the normal glow. i thought it was a blackout, and i wanted to put away my book but my book was gone. and i looked around and everyone was gone, including my sister.
i spent around 5 minutes processing what had happened. i realised it was 2 o clock in the morning, my mum was asleep and was sleeping the wrong way, my sister had slept in the guest bedroom, and i had been dreaming for 4 hours.
actually im not sure, when exactly did i sleep? when exactly did i wake up? can you tell?
all i can say is that it was REALLY REALLY COOL.
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4:21 PM|
Friday, April 2, 2010
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should i post the next post? okay fine then, i will delete it after a few days.
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8:42 PM|
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fun time at esplanade today. met hwach bboys like kahhow zomg. and nelson, and stuff. oh, they learn really fast its barely two months!? not bad already....
pretty good. things turned out well. cypher was cool. haha.
but friend 6 days a week man saturday there's prac. but nevermind its gonna be aite
xinyi you must trust me.
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8:23 PM|
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somehow or another school stretched till late at night, and i had free blocks all the way till assembly at 12mn. i went to the bio lab to say hello to my science classmates. hong en, haozhi and bryce were in the class using microscopes and were all in white blazers.
i was wrestling with bryce when i realised that yihuan was the lab assistant. i said hi to yihuan and she went "omg you are in 11SO7D as well!?" and im like "haha yeah...i mean no im just stopping by to say hi to my friends. you are their mentor or something?" "yeah" then she showed me some stuff under the microscope. i think it was a plant or something like that. then bryce challenged me to a dance battle and i declined, said bye and walked out of the bio lab.
after a quick camwhore session with my class we made our way to assembly at a weird place i have never really seen before in the school compound, looked like the canyon where the 3 witches reside in the movie 'stardust'. we played weird games like balloon making, arithmetic and shit, and then it all ended with a few hundred balloons soaring up into the sky. the night sky so didn't really see much. there were lots of stars though. then lim lai cheng made a speech through the pa system and we proceeded back to the assembly area. while lim lai cheng was talking yihuan suddenly walked onto the podium towards her and grabbed the microphone from her. she was sweating and looked ultra pissed off. she started talking about PW. then i heard yen lin scream something like "ITS YOUR FAULT" and yihuan screams "NO ITS YOURS" and a huge squabble ensues between a lot of girls at the back right of the assembly hall. very scary and llc starts screaming as well.
then my mum screams at me to wake up.
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sorry guys, i just had to write this down somewhere.
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10:42 AM|
