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Saturday, March 28, 2009

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B-division went into an unfortunate closure but I’ll still have fond memories with the best team I have ever played with, and my batch of hockey players.

We ain’t raffles hockey players. We are Raffles Hockey.

Lots of things have been going on. Sunday could be said to be the worst day of my life, but thanks to lots of cheering and whatnots, or you could just say the sharing of these many thoughts out loud, made me feel better. However I have seriously no idea whether this is an end to all the torment I have been facing. I definitely think this isn’t.

Academics have been going down, down, down. I’m failing just about everything and its pretty unexpected since this year I am actually mugging pretty hard. However things sometimes don’t turn out the way you want to. In fact you can say that in absolutely every instance things haven’t been turning out the way I wanted to. At least for the first 5 days of the week.

Thanks nut for the message. (:

Friday was awesome, yet horrible at the same time. Told nick of some bad news in spite of our victor, and he became pretty sad too. I think. In his words, it’s really painful to be happy while others are sad. We lumbered around without knowing what to say to people, good friends that have lost. We could merely provide a brief exchange of hugs and sorries and cheerups and smiles, but we knew that what we said couldn’t really help, which was the worst part.

I don’t know if it’s a blessing or a curse that I still feel so attached to the debate circuit even though I’m destined to be out of it forever. Lots of things have happened in Sec 3 that I don’t wish to remember now, but supposing that this was the level of interest I had for debating in sec 1, I would never have met these friends, such good friends that it hurts so much to see them sad.

Perhaps it is wrong for me to think of debates in terms of the friends I have gotten through it, is it? But whatever the case, that is all I have harvested from my four years in debates. Perhaps that was meant to be, I have already decided to move on from it.

Nature ended up being a solace for emotions we couldn’t express. This morning I actually made it a point to wake up early, just to watch a beautiful morning. I’m glad we shared this together, I guessed you needed it more than I do. Or was it? During that silent moment I saw you toss a memory downstream, and I did the same too. And more and more, creating a raucous rhythm of ripples that slowly disappeared into clear reflections of the misty forest across.

We liked the scenery, didn’t we. Hope you did.

I did.

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