music//soul

Saturday, March 28, 2009

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B-division went into an unfortunate closure but I’ll still have fond memories with the best team I have ever played with, and my batch of hockey players.

We ain’t raffles hockey players. We are Raffles Hockey.

Lots of things have been going on. Sunday could be said to be the worst day of my life, but thanks to lots of cheering and whatnots, or you could just say the sharing of these many thoughts out loud, made me feel better. However I have seriously no idea whether this is an end to all the torment I have been facing. I definitely think this isn’t.

Academics have been going down, down, down. I’m failing just about everything and its pretty unexpected since this year I am actually mugging pretty hard. However things sometimes don’t turn out the way you want to. In fact you can say that in absolutely every instance things haven’t been turning out the way I wanted to. At least for the first 5 days of the week.

Thanks nut for the message. (:

Friday was awesome, yet horrible at the same time. Told nick of some bad news in spite of our victor, and he became pretty sad too. I think. In his words, it’s really painful to be happy while others are sad. We lumbered around without knowing what to say to people, good friends that have lost. We could merely provide a brief exchange of hugs and sorries and cheerups and smiles, but we knew that what we said couldn’t really help, which was the worst part.

I don’t know if it’s a blessing or a curse that I still feel so attached to the debate circuit even though I’m destined to be out of it forever. Lots of things have happened in Sec 3 that I don’t wish to remember now, but supposing that this was the level of interest I had for debating in sec 1, I would never have met these friends, such good friends that it hurts so much to see them sad.

Perhaps it is wrong for me to think of debates in terms of the friends I have gotten through it, is it? But whatever the case, that is all I have harvested from my four years in debates. Perhaps that was meant to be, I have already decided to move on from it.

Nature ended up being a solace for emotions we couldn’t express. This morning I actually made it a point to wake up early, just to watch a beautiful morning. I’m glad we shared this together, I guessed you needed it more than I do. Or was it? During that silent moment I saw you toss a memory downstream, and I did the same too. And more and more, creating a raucous rhythm of ripples that slowly disappeared into clear reflections of the misty forest across.

We liked the scenery, didn’t we. Hope you did.

I did.

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Monday, March 23, 2009

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HI MIKE!

I'm here to post voluntarily just to cheer you up (: IF YOU NEED ANY CHEERING UP :D

I'm also trying to get away from homework, but that's totally secondary! (YES IT IS) It is 1.35 am! I suddenly realise I have nothing to say though. Hmm.

Okay 1.38. UHHHHH (how do people blog! WHAT DO YOU SAY)

Haiku Time!

Dear Mike be happy

because when you are happy

uh. I laugh. Alot.

SKINNY ELF! SHOOT YOU WITH LAZUR BEAM PEWPEWPEWPEW

NIGHT!

love nut

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Saturday, March 21, 2009

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wow actually this quiz is PRETTY awesome.

i felt really sad so i spent time doing this random quiz for fun and wow lol super true heh.

check funkybananalove.bs aka nic's blog for more info. i kopped from her.

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

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why the fuck am i not crying.
why the FUCKING HELL am i being so indifferent.

its my family for goodness sake.

god this is driving me crazy.

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oh god @ just now.

1. HELLO DOREEN OMG FIRST TIME SEEING YOU IN 6 YEARS AHAHAHAHA LOL SO COOL. I swear we should meet up some day like on purpose. UH and good luck with your acting and all, tv star ;D i'll consider doing that chinese drama thing again when im free and bored during the dec hols? NICE SEEING YOU AGAIN THOUGH haha i totally didn't expect it.

2. Oh mann i thought it was the worst day of my life after that but no it didn't turn out to be that way. the rain

i swear

is imba awesome. what with bringing a cheekily small umbrella unfit for the both of us, stoning at kap after that and whining and just giving up and walking home and talking about random things. and kinda missing that experience after that. Unforgettable i swear.

Now, thank my ____ poetry mentor for making me feel guilty, now i have to spam poetry all over again. ): enjoy hahaha lol

So wild you were once, in those
brief moments of sunshine, yet all
turns to naught
in the cloudy days – fleeing from fears
that drench us all
akin to wandering travelers in
constant search for shelter

but perhaps you’d smile if
while you’re safe, you find outside
amidst the jingling jives of gypsies
and colours in the storm

just two little kids
dancing in the rain.

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I'M SUPPOSED TO UPDATE

argh what is this awful font

there! much better. I can't believe I allowed mike to force me into doing this

ALSO I AM SUPPOSED TO BE DOING MATH.

WHEN SOMEONE CAN FIGURE OUT WHAT DIFFERENTIATION MEANS,

CALL ME.

THANKS,

nut

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Thursday, March 19, 2009

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well, i didn't say what kind of splash.

maybe from the coffee cup i used yesterday?

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Love this new poet, guess he or she who decided to remain anonymous is destined to make a big splash on the literary scene sooner or later.

Hohoho.

BREAKING WAVES.

we are like the breaking waves.
that smash against the battered rock like
mayflies, cos they got life span
of like
one day.

haha i forgot
to complete my sentence.

-Anonymous

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Monday, March 16, 2009

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just look at my pathetic tagboard man. its just...

pathetic.

anyway friday class outing was awesome, bowling, pool, bla.

okay urhm saturday was good. and sunday too.

and today sucks,

and suddenly i don't feel like posting :/

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Saturday, March 14, 2009

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hahaha im all excited about today.

tonight i mean.

gonna be reallll fun.

okay i promise a coherent post sooner or later. which doesn't say much.

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Wednesday, March 11, 2009

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feels sad about hockey.

but still feels a need to strive on.

and move on.

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Sunday, March 1, 2009

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k lets get things short and really sweet

life has been really great so far and everything's going pretty well though im not sure what might happen soon (thinks rosie smith) (touches wood)

lots of things lah

1. Acads

woooo physics test screw cck! 9/10 ftw awesomeness.

math cct was easy too. lol but im quite scared of chem spa im still not sure of the topic tested.

HAHA i sound mugger. thats quite good for a start.

2. HOCKEY

we kept telling ourselves lol this year we're not going to work out aiyah we didn't even make past second round in cdiv but we broke past the odds ON FRIDAY, 25th OF DECEMBER we managed to show everyone what raffles hockey is made of. Awesome three nil victory against northland when ish rifqi zaki micah adib gifford waichoong ewan hakim timothy jaspal ryan royston benji dewin vincent aravind shit i forgot if there are other names very sorry but yeah ALL OF US we conquered seiged and destroyed.

onward raffles hockey deathlasers we shall chiong into semis together.

3. Debates.

Sorry guys for the 2-1 loss.

nvm its okay i'll be there to give you guys moral support all the way folks. even if my mum tells me i can't debate for any competitions anymore.

4. somehow or another the weekends seem really awesome, and the usual nights of sleeping have become much nicer. eh i wonder why lol. maybe its karma.

and im changing a LOT i know it i feel it awwww feels good..

maybe some people know why.

TODAY WAS AWESOME thank you for making it awesome (:

good night!

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